A topic that needs to be talked about....

Suicide

By: Erin 

For those who do it or think about it, it is

An escape

Freedom from the hurt

Peace from pain

Unnervingly inviting

Interesting and Curious

The only way

For Loved ones it is

Unbearably heartbreaking

Distressing beyond belief

Filled with anguish

Tragic

In time and space it is

Permanent

Unalterable

Irreversible

Forever

For everyone it is

Quiet and cold

Uncomfortable

Sorrowful

Gloomy

For me it is

All of the above

And  

A Reminder of why I wake up in the morning

A reminder to keep fighting

A reminder to walk forward on my bad days

A reminder to live in the present

A reminder to appreciate and celebrate my friends

A reminder to do my best….. today

You deserve love.... down to your beautiful soul.

The cycle will break

By: Erin 

A couple of these

A handful of those

A scoop of this

A sliver of that

Some binges started slow

The pace always quickened although

A pile of these

A fistful of those

A bowl of this

A slice of that

Some binges began at lightning speed

As my emotions took over like a stampede

In a last ditch effort to give myself what it cried out for

I ate and ate until my body could fit food no more

In a daze I would feel the physical pain by body was in

But that was nothing compared to the emotional pain that was hidden within

I would then turn to the only friend I could find

The porcelain bowl that was there every time

That object though not alive, brought comfort and relief that was true

For after I purged the food and pain I really did feel brand new

I ignored the pain in my throat and sometimes in my chest

Because I required that I smiled and did my best

But I broke down gradually, not all and abrupt

But it still turned my life upside down and caused great disrupt

But today I am alive, well, and unstuck from the horrid pattern and trap

But it still takes work, and did not happen in a snap

I love that I am not a slave to the need to binge and purge

But sometimes it takes my everything to fight that awful urge

It’s worth it though the long days, nights and even self-fights

Because when you pull away from your eating disorder your life reaches you heights

Remember you always deserve comfort other than a ceramic bowl

Like a hug from someone that loves you down to your beautiful soul