Worry at the edge of a cliff.

Worry

By: Erin

Dedicated: To my mom: I love you so much.

Worry sits in places of my body

Like in my chest

Like in my stomach

Like in my shoulders

And some of the rest

Worry eats at my heart and my soul

Pushing and fighting my mind for control

Saying:

“Don’t enjoy the moment you’re in.”

“Obsess over the ones that have yet to begin.”

Worry creeps into my being unwanted uninvited

Ruining my joy with the question: “What if?”

Feeling as though you are living on the edge of a cliff

Preventing trust, hope, love and peace

Worry does nothing but make discomfort increase

So how do we combat this difficult and hard feeling?

This is something I need to face – as part of my healing

The truth is I don’t know

Right now I’m wracked with worry to the extreme

And it seems never ending – like a rushing stream

But if God is sovereign over everything like we’ve been taught

I guess the only thing I can think of is to pray and give him a shot

A shot to work in my heart

For the wisdom he does impart

A shot to allow me to grow

It is true I may be a little hesitant though

A shot to do work in me

So that others may see

There is no need to worry after all

Christ died for it all

 

After a Storm

Hanging On

By: Erin

I feel lost today

In every single way

Not sure where I am headed

Or even where I want to go

Sometimes it seems impossible to know

Which is the direction I should choose

Everyone says something different – I am confused

This makes me crave control

And fosters the desire to burry myself in a hole

My thoughts unwanted creep into my head

I remember all the horrible things everyone has said

The dark clouds move in and I retreat inside

Thinking to myself “oh well, I tried”

Suddenly my hips seem grow

I forget the how to use the word “no”

Anger fills my heart

I want to rip my body apart

The tears fall faster than ever before

And I don’t want to live anymore

But just when it seems impossible to hang on

I peak out from my hole and realize what has come

It is dawn

The clouds have broken, and sunlight has come through

My hips returned to their size that is true

My heart is again filled with love, hope and joy

I am thankful it was not my body that I did destroy

My tears had stopped after seeing the light

And desiring my life after realizing it will be alright

I feel lost and other difficult things some days

And I often react in many ways

I’m struggling to learn ways to manage and cope

But after a storm there is always hope

It is dawn

It always comes...hang on