Is anything ever simple anymore?

Not so Simple

By: Erin 

I have danced on a stage with thousands watching

…..many many times

I have given speeches in my high school

I have talked in front of a campus ministry

I have told a very cute boy I liked him…. A lot

So… Why is it so hard to turn to those that love me?

….and simply say: “Mom and Dad – I am not Okay.”

Maybe it’s because they care too much

I hate hearing their heart break over the phone

Maybe it’s because they won’t care enough

I hate hearing the distance they sometimes portray

Maybe it’s because they will blame themselves

I hate when they take my problems on as their own

Maybe it’s because they will give up on me

I don’t think I could handle another person doing that… again

Maybe it’s because they will be angry

I hate when they scream, cry and yell

Maybe it’s because of the money I have already cost them

I hate when I hurt their lifestyle and the comfort of our home

But

Maybe just maybe it is because I’m scared and I don’t how what I need

Maybe it is because I’m hurting and I’m ashamed I can’t fix it myself

Maybe it is because I’m angry that these words must be said

It is hard not knowing how they will react…

It is hard not knowing what they will say…

It is hard not knowing what they will do…

But when we’re not Okay

We don’t mess with the maybes

There is not a lot of time to delay

So what might seem simple at first glance

Is really not so simple at all

But no matter how difficult or complicated it may be

You are worth all the ‘maybes’ because

You deserve a fighting chance