I don't like to feel..

Feeling to Thought

By: Erin

I don’t want to feel so I think instead

The feeling of sadness turns into the thought

“I want to be dead”

But this trend is not healthy, no it’s not

That much can be said

But I don’t know what to do

The feeling of fear turns into the thought

“I am not good enough”

But this idea does not match up, no it does not

And that thought is quite quite rough

And I don’t know what to do

The feeling of shame turns into the thought

“Erin, you are the one to blame”

But this is not the blame game, no it is not

And blame does nothing but frame and maim

So I don’t know what to do

But I heard something today in group and I think it’s true

We’re going to figure this out – this feeling stuff

And it’s going to be hard, scary and rough

But we’re not alone because we’re in the same boat

Riding our emotional waves – working to stay afloat

It’s supposed to get easier, that’s what they say

And as much as I don’t want to, I believe them today

These providers that work with me hard to recover

Continually lead me in the right path – that much I did discover