I hate when things don't go my way.....

Body Image Meltdown

By: Erin 

My body image has never been good or great

Actually my body is something I’ve always loved to hate

But here in the recovery world and time

We learn that using words like “fat” is basically a crime

But what do you do when you work really hard

And then all the sudden what you learned seems to discard

Your old language resurfaces to tell you what to do

And you’re convinced that overnight you grew grew grew

Well this just happened to me like two days ago

And let me tell you boy does it blow

Not only is my eating disorder screaming horrible lies in my ear

But I’m committed to recovery – that much is clear

So I feel like I was tricked into something I didn’t ask for

But I do know that being sick is not what I want anymore

So I guess I must keep going with the plan we’ve already made

Even getting on the scale backwards in order to get weighed

My body image meltdown sucks a lot and I want it to end

But, I’m sure like with most of recovery there is more I need to mend

So in the meantime I will go the extra mile in making myself smile

Because staying the track will be worthwhile