Cut in two.

The Split

By: Erin

  

There are two very distinct parts of me right now

My brain, mind and intellectual side

Then too my touchy, feeling, emotional part too

Currently these parts of me are distinct 

I truly wish they were more linked

But somewhere down the line they separated in two

And this changes how I act and what I do

This may sound strange, but to me it finally makes sense

I can better understand some of why things have been so intense

My mind likes to force my emotions into a box

Then proceeds to bind it in chains with locks 

Until

A disruption occurs and the chains are broken free

My emotions take over to a scary and alarming degree

I then spin into crisis unable to handle the feeling

All of which I have kept myself from dealing

While before my mind took control so that I could be the “best” I could be

And others would see

There is worth inside of me

But now I am left cut in two

And I have to learn what to do

Because I want my mind and my heart to be connected in some way

To add more life, stability, and love to my day

I’ve run from this truth for a little while

But I’m ready to face it, head on (sometimes with a smile)

But once again this process never really finishes or comes to an end

But I hope it takes my two halves and begins to mend

My mind and my heart together

So, I may begin to feel a little better

Dedicated to:  

S & T – For the difficult but caring conversation with me when this realization first surfaced

A & N – The two people that are working hard to help me recognize when and how I am separating myself – even when I don’t want to