What I know to be true.

 

I love you, but I can’t save you

By: Erin 

You are my friend, my family

I love you more than you will ever know

We have been through both times that were high and times that were low

But there is something that must me said

It’s been something I’ve known but ignored up in my head

You make me smile when I remember our times

But you also make me cry when you hurt yourself or others sometimes

You make me laugh out loud when you tell your jokes

But you also use your words to hurt, manipulate, lie and coax

I love when the two of us are joined at the arm

But it causes me so much distress when you inflict severe self-harm

I love when we stay up all night making promises and wishing on stars

But it kills me to then look down and see all of your scars

You are my friend, my family

I love you more than you will ever know

We have been through both times that were high and times that were low

But there is something that must be said

It’s been something I’ve known but ignored up in my head

I cannot continue to keep your secrets buried deep

For those secrets don’t allow me to sleep

I will no longer engage in our destructive days or nights

This may cause arguments and even fights

But this is not healthy for me or for you

That is the only thing I know to be true

It is my hope that by me pulling away and getting support

That you might also want something of that sort

But I need you to know that while I love you through and through

There is no way I can save you

Not like the two of us used to believe we would do

Like the way I would expect you to save me too

It’s not fair

It’s not right

All that belief will do is prolong the darkness

And stifle any possibility of light

I love you, but I can’t save you

And you can’t save me either

That is what I know to be true