Hard to give up sometimes.... but so good to let go

Ballerina No More

By: Erin 

Pink Satin Shoes

Big Fluffy Tutus

These were the things I lived for

I decorated my life in trophies, medals and ribbons

I practiced routines, moves and technique

For I knew that all I ever wanted to be was

Ms. Ballerina

I still get sad because there are things I miss

Like the after perfect performance bliss

But most of the time underneath the pink perfection

Was deep self rejection and disconnection

I hid my hurt, hate and helplessness

People including myself were blinded by my hard work

It soon become obvious but seemingly complicated

For dance and I had become one

It was not as simple as me being done

Eventually though for me to let go

Of the hurt, hate and helplessness

I needed to learn to live beyond the trophies, medals and ribbons

I needed to stop hiding behind the perfect performance bliss

And examine the deep self rejection and disconnection

I never stopped working hard

Just channeled it somewhere new

So I could figure out how to be not false but true

And I learned that dance and I were never really one

But that dance is something that can be and still is fun
































Yes. Dancing is still fun.