A NEW best.

My Personal Best

By: Erin 

My personal best used to look like this:

Push myself to every limit

To be perfect to the extreme

Tune out my family and friends

And to achieve the best and more

Overall I would disregard me, myself and I

To be everything I thought I should be

Without even wondering “why”

My personal best has changed or is changing today

For better or worse I’m still not sure

But this is how it looks today

And while it may not be fun, it is okay

My best involves doing something for me each day

It can be simple, fun, or chill that is up to me

Exercise is something that is good for me when I do it healthily

Sometimes I stretch, walk, swim or dance, all of which are done for me

Diet is a hard one for those who struggle with food, but very important to keep a balanced mood

I plan at the beginning of each week and strive to eat meals three times each day

Drugs or prescriptions keep me going through my sometimes long and hard days

Taking them is a necessity in each and every way

Sleep is something I cannot and will not go without

It refreshes my mind and gives me the motivation I need to move about

Spiritually or Jesus time is the last one on my list

And this is most important to me because without Him I would not exist

Sometimes this is a discouraging list to read

Sometimes others wonder what has happened to the girl I used to be

So driven and determined to complete her tasks each day

Such a leader and so organized to get things done right away

I guess it does not matter though because you see

Without changing my personal best

There is a good chance I would not be here to be me

Time will come when I will get stronger and more able to do more

But I will never again be that girl who sacrificed herself

Nope, I will not, not anymore